For Once In Your Life

You just don't love me And I just don't care Oh I never said I would play fair Something so perfect Something so rare There is no cure There's not a prayer, a prayer So what can I do I am the only perfect choice You've met your match I've lost my voice And when you're gone it gets so cold I swear I'm too young to be this old So what do I do Oh I've been better You want what's pure and you want what's right But I'm forever, Just do the right thing for once in your life, in your life I've got a right to be this wrong It started when the lying did Tummy aches and the best of me is gone And all that I am is out and lay bare, and lay bare So what do I do? So what do I do? Oh I've been better You want what's pure and you want what's right But I'm for ever just do the right thing for once in your life, in your life It's all I am Oh I've been cheated covered in diamonds covered in filth But I've still breathing But please stick around and ill build you a world

Oh I've strangled past beyond sex or cut down to size My life just dangled Oh there's no context for once in my life in my life

So what do I do So what do I do I know that I'm just a lost girl But please stick around and ill build you a world I'll build you a world I'll build you a world I'll build you a world

Letter To God..

Dear God, I'm writing this letter to you,
cause I don't have a clue, can you help me?
I'm sitting here, simply trying to figure out,
what my life's all about, can you tell me?
I never wanted to be, the person you see,
can you tell me who I am?
I always wanted to die, but you kept me here alive,
can you tell me who I am?
I lie awake conducting this symphony,
that you have gifted to me, I can't ever sleep,
don't get mad, but I get weak inside,
and I start to fall apart, cause I feel nothing,
I never wanted to be, some kind of comic relief,
please show me who I am,
I've been tortured and scorned, since the that I was born,
but I don't know who I am, and I thank you man for everything,
sorry I'm so frightened about all of it, but I wish I could give you more,
and all the lights are shining down on me, and I feel intimated by it all,
I never wanted to be, the person you see, but thank you,
oh god please tell me now, are you disappointed? are you proud?
haven't I done everything, everything,
I'm so sorry I'm so weak, and I turned into a freak,
but I don't know anything, anything,
I've lost all self-esteem, my baby and everything and I feel nothing, nothing,
oh god please tell me now,
oh god please tell me now, cause i feel nothing,
and dear god I'm writing this letter to you,
I am coming unglued please help me...